Nightmares all night. N kept texting me. So exhausted, stayed up writing a paper that I had no interest in. I have an exam in 2 & 1/2 hours that I'm not ready for.
Thank fucking Goddess I get to hang out with N later. Laundry and vent sessions are the best cure. And... maybe a drink or two at Sutters. I legit haven't seen her since February and she's leaving tomorrow to go back home for the summer. I haven't been home since February either. I miss everyone. Once all my near-future stuff is settled, I'll have to plan a trip home for a few days to visit.
Everyone is graduating or leaving and it's such a sad thing to see these incredible friendships possibly diminish because of the distance that will be put between us.
It's weird, I never minded staying in the town I'm in until now. I think within the next year or two I need to get out of NY. I've been contemplating that idea for some time now (if we're being honest, probably since I was 16, but could never get my shit together and serious enough to leave). I want to go visit my birth mom in LA. I keep thinking about going back to Nice, France even though I can't remember more than 3 words of French. Maybe NC. London during the summer would be nice to go to again. I know half of these things won't happen, but I have 2 goals. If I don't get into the other grad schools, I'll apply to massage therapy school (probably should have done this instead of trying to get a social welfare degree, as it was one of my first choices, but oh well). When that's over, I'll seriously have to think about where I want to go and what I want to do.
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