Disrespecting your parents.

I don't disrespect my mom.. but she isn't always respectful of me and my views.

Your highs and lows of this past year.

Highs:
- meeting someone I immediately fell in love with
- rekindling an old friendship
- RFM reunion (minus LH) and cookie decorating
- met a really amazing person, can't wait to hang out with her in March =)
- discovered a lot about myself
- quit my retail job -> so fucking happy about that
- did a lot of volunteer work and enjoyed every minute of it
- got an apartment and became a lot closer with 2 of the 3 people I live with <3
- FINALLY came out to my mom, and found out she was way more accepting than I thought she'd be. Should've done it when I was 14.

Lows:
- losing that someone that I fell in love with
- doing worse in my classes than I thought I would
- being sick for a month and a half, and bed-ridden for 5 days straight
- learned that the guy that we live with can't do most things for himself

Your favorite tumblrs.

This is easy. In no particular order:

http://daphneemarie.tumblr.com/
(awesome pictures, she's super gorgeous, and although you have to look them, she wrote tons of letters to her boyfriend that died. They're absolutely heartbreaking, but she has such strength. it's hard not to admire her.)

http://missldn.tumblr.com/
(Amazing musician. Check her music out!!)

http://lezbhonest.tumblr.com/
(Cute and sexy pictures of lesbians. Need I say more?)

Your earliest memory.

When I was about 4. Watching football games with my dad (before he died) and brother, and eating chips and dip. Oh, and when my mom used to make popcorn and put in a tiny bit of butter. My dad would then sneak in an entire stick of butter haha.

Your beliefs.

Be happy. Be healthy. Surround yourself with positive people only. ALWAYS be honest about EVERYTHING.

Somewhere you'd like to move or visit.

Move:
Somewhere in MA. -> Northampton is a pretty chill town.
North Carolina.
Nice, French Riviera.


Visit:
India.
Italy.
London, England (would love to go back there again).
Paris, France (also would love to go back there again).
Ireland (going with KMC fuck yeahhhh).
San Jose, CA (because that's where I was born and I would love to go there and look around).

(yeah, so i missed a week lol.) Bullet your whole day.

- Shower, brush teeth, etc
- watched 2 really boring movies for class
- wrote 4 essays for class and posted 2 response essays for discussion
- financial aid stuff
- went to visit grams but she wasn't there
- got wood in the house
- burned the kettlecorn =(
- cake boss <3
- made plans with KMC and talked about running away to Ireland this spring
- tried to swap some classes for spring semester
- hung out with the family

Letters to CH

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

C.H.,

You fucked up my life. You made it better. I’ll never know if anything you’ve said to me is true. You did, however, give me the courage to love shamelessly, with no guilt.

- A

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

C.H.,

I swear every letter ends up to you lol. Thank you for some of the fondest memories of my life. That one saturday, you know which one I’m talking about, was amazing. I loved the talk we had, and cuddling with you. It was one of the most comfortable, peaceful days I’ve ever had. Us cuddling on my bed, watching that funny chicken movie (but not really watching it because we were talking so much), your head resting on my chest, my arms around you. It was so easy. I miss that day.

- A

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

C.H.,

I’m still in love with you, and I think I always will be. I would give you a second chance if you wanted it.

- A

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

C.H.,

Yet again, another letter to you. Maybe one day I’ll send everything I’ve ever written concerning my feelings to you.

I’ve been battling with so many thoughts since that day in May. I think my world literally shattered when we broke up. I wanted to be perfect for you. I wanted to tell my mom about everything, for you. But I was stupid and I waited too long. If you’d just waited a few more hours.. But, life doesn’t work like that. You yourself admit that you lied and manipulated and played games. I wouldn’t have won either way. You left my heart full of holes, with no hope of repairing them.

And then, last night, when I felt everything just collapsing on top of me.. I contacted you. And even after everything that’s happened between us, you sprang into action. Words of comfort, of anger at what was done to me, of protection, of love. And then, miraculously, laughter. You made me smile and laugh with such ease, and I knew I made the right choice in contacting you. We talked for 2 hours, and nothing could’ve made me happier at that moment. You apologizing, and realizing how you had treated me, made me feel somewhat at peace. I’m happy you’ve found someone who brought out that change in you, the maturity, the caring.. losing the manipulation and lies. She’s good for you, and it makes me so happy to see your life brighten after so much hurting and loss.

I’m glad we’re going to start talking regularly again. Being friends with you is something I will always treasure, even after everything.

Thank you for telling me that I deserve more. I’m going to expect it from now on.

<3

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

C.H.,

You do keep coming up in a lot of these letters I’m writing. You are still in my thoughts the majority of every day, and even when I’m sleeping. I wish you hadn’t lied. I wish you hadn’t felt the need to manipulate people, as well as myself, when we were together. I wish you hadn’t cheated. I wish I hadn’t fallen in love with you, because it still haunts my every thought, and I’m coming to hate it.

- A

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)

2.C.F.H. - Although you made my life a living hell, I still love you with everything that I am. You’re no longer in this state, and you may no longer love me, but the time we spent together, and all of our conversations, is something that I will keep with me always. <3

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

C,

I miss you more than I’d ever dare tell anyone. It honestly hurts to breathe.

- A

Day 13 — Someone you wish you could forgive

CFH,

I wish I could forgive you for all the bad things that you’ve done to me. You admit that you treated me like shit.. but then you act like you’re the victim when I explain to you why I’m still so hurt. You continue to hurt me and I’m honestly so sick of it. I’m trying so hard to be friends with you, but the way we both talk to each other.. it feels like we’re talking as if we’re still dating, and I can’t have that happen right now.

Please, just stop making me break down.

- A

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

CFH,

God fucking dammit. Life with you was a roller coaster ride. From the first day we started talking, I knew I was in love with you. You seemed damn near perfect. You were everything I wanted. Then came the day when I found out that you’d had another girlfriend, for TWO FUCKING YEARS. I can’t even begin to describe how humiliated I felt. We, of course, made up the next day when you told me why you were still with her. It was fucked up, but I let it continue. I came home for spring break, and you fucked me over bigtime, and I forgave you again (I’m a glutton for punishment), and then said you never wanted to speak to me again. Not a week later, you wanted to see me, which never happened. The next time I came home, you wanted to see me. We only spoke for a minute but my heart fucking melted, and I hated myself for my weakness. You ditched our plans to hang out later that night, and the sunday after as well. When I came home for summer break, that day I got to spend with you and your bestie was so much fun, I don’t think it could’ve been more perfect. You came over my house the next night, and we went for a walk and talked, then came back to my room and instead of watching that movie we talked for 3 hours straight about us, and you asked me to be your girlfriend. The next week was nothing but drama with you moving out of you and your ex-girlfriend’s apartment and the whole fucked up situation with J, and you cheating on me while I was right in the next room.. and we broke up. And I hated you for about a day. But I’ve never been able to stay mad at you.

I’m glad you’ve found someone who makes you happy (because I’ve found happiness as well, and wish you the best), even if she lives in a different state. And I hope you come back to visit someday because I honestly value your friendship, even with everything that has happened between us.

- A

Discuss your first love and your first kiss.

This one.. honestly, it's too painful. So I'll post some letters that I'd written forever ago on my Tumblr.

Ignorant straight men make me so fucking annoyed.

It may seem like a silly, ridiculous conversation, but it hurt my bestie's feelings that this guy was so unaccepting when she had finally gotten the courage to come out.


Here's the facebook convo:


Me writing on KM's wall: Haha yayy you finally came out as a lesbian. I am SO proud of you. 
(comments on wallpost)
D: Eww
A: Haha why ew? Lesbians are sexy as hell.
D: I disagree.
A: May I ask why?
D: Haha well ex GF is gay . So idk kinda just made it weird for me hAha
A: Aww lol im sorry. Well, just so ya know, not all lezzies are your exgf :P so we can't all be ewww. Haha.
D: Yes you all can lol.
A: Well that's just highly insulting. I don't think all straight people are ew. You're just a butthead. =P
D: Hahahahahahaha ! So what ur saying is the love of my life is gay lol
A: depends on who the love of your life is
D: KM haha
A:Lol well, I am sorry to inform you (even though she already has technically, on her about me and interested in) that she is indeed a lesbian, and sadly for you not interested in men. haha.
D: hahahaha big boo
KM: oh geez you guys...ya'll are dorks.
D: yeaaaa and ur gay lol
KM: yess, i am lol
D: awkward turtle
A: Psht, woman. I am defending you as he said ewwww to you being a lesbian. So i'm not a dork.
D: its still ewww
KM: how is it ew?
A: your face is ewwwww =P
D: I agree lol
A: That was directed at you D, not her lol
D: because its not natural ! and all the pretty girls in the world go lezbo and im still single hahaha
KM: you have alot of girls all over you, i'm not the only girl out there..
D: hahaha well its just a sad day for the male gender to see a beautiful girl like pussy lol
A: It is natural.. And women can't "go" lesbian. They're lesbians their entire lives, most women just don't want to realize it because society is so down on women being gay and because a lot of people gay bash and who honestly wants to deal with that? And I wouldn't say that last statement in person in front of any lesbians, you'll get your ass kicked. Just sayin.
D: adam and eve not adam and steve ahahahaha just saying
A: So wait, if an "ugly" chick liked women, men don't care but if a "pretty" one likes women its a tragedy? that's a little screwed up.
A: Just sayin, not everyone believes in god, or that story.
D: haha i dont believe in it either its the point lo
KM: so your not gonna support me being gay?




Seriously, she was about ready to cry cuz one of her guy friends said that shit. I think it's really funny when a straight man gets all argumentative when a "pretty girl" comes out as a lesbian. Seriously, grow up and quit while you're ahead. She doesn't want your dick, nor does she care that you think "its just a sad day for the male gender to see a beautiful girl like pussy." End of story.

How you hope your future will be.

All I want for the future is a wife that I love, a home that actually feels like home, to be a domestic violence counselor, maybe a kid or two (adopted), and to be happy.

A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.

I think it was probably my second year of college. I was finally starting to get my shit together; doing better in my classes, working (even if it was a retail job), and paying off my bills, etc. I was drinking less and being more focused on what I needed to do. My relationships with my friends were better than ever.

Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.

I never actually paid attention to any of that nonsense. So I have no idea haha.

So, I did a project for To Write Love on Her Arms awhile back..

called Letters of Encouragement. I, along with some friends and some of the brothers in my fraternity, wrote letters with encouraging messages, song lyrics, and quotes, as well as pictures, for people in treatment centers to brighten up their day. I sent them into TWLOHA and they actually posted a picture on their facebook page. I really enjoyed writing the letters, and think its such a worthwhile project.

Feel free to check out the letters we wrote at: http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=470626706956&set=a.256053601956.151753.8529136956

And if you would like more information on the project, and to read a really amazing letter that someone wrote for the project (not in my group of letters), go to this site: http://www.twloha.com/blog/if-you-believe-can/

One of the things in the last post kind of lead me to thinking about this.

21. My three favorite flowers are lilies, cream-colored roses, and sunflowers.

The girl I'm referring to in this post will be known as X, so no one but her (if she ever actually finds this blog) knows who she is.

It was the first time we were meeting in person, and it was the sweetest thing she ever did for me, other than introduce me to her parents and other family members that same night.

The first day we met in person was the first day I moved into my apartment. X had just gotten off work and was dealing with shitty traffic. She texted me and told me she was outside. I went outside to see her looking so damn beautiful in a sundress, holding this huge bouquet of my three favorite flowers. It was the cutest thing I've ever seen. We hung out in my apartment for a little while. Then she told me that she had to go to her grandmother's to help plan her mother's surprise birthday party with her family. She asked me to go with her. So, we both got in the car and drove to her grandmother's house. We walked in and her uncle immediately started joking about how short I was and how young I looked. We ate pizza while they went over party details and I talked to her uncle about anything and everything that we could randomly think up. He was so nice to me. They all were. It was really cute when X and her aunt went and dug through all of X's grandmother's old clothes and played dress up. Apparently they do it all the time. It was pretty funny to see the getups they put together. Some of it actually looked good on them.

She told me she wanted me to be her date to her mom's party. I was really happy when she said that. I remember her coming over a few times so we could work on the posters for the party. We sorted through old photo's of her mom and put them together on the posters, along with tons of colored glitter and glittery Jamaican/Bahama-styled stick ons, and stickers. We made a huge mess of glitter, and to this day I still find glitter on my socks haha. We were covered in it. I remember when she came to pick me up for her mom's party, it was raining. And she was just standing next to her car outside my apartment in her ridiculous outfits, hot pink grass skirt and all. She looked to dorkishly adorable. I had such a good time at the party. I felt really awkward and out of place at first because I didn't know anyone, but she introduced me to her two best friends when they got to her family's restaurant. We actually seemed to get along really well. One of her aunts asked me, while we were cleaning up after the party, if X was my girlfriend. I told her no. She then asked me if we were just friends, and I had to say yes. I didn't know what to define us as or how X felt about me. I told X later what her aunt had said and she just smiled and laughed. As we got in her car so she could drive me home, she received a text message from one of her best friends saying what a nice girl I am. She texted him back saying "She's a lesbian." Haha. The goodnight kiss when we got to my place made me see stars.

Those were my favorite moments of the time we spent together. I honestly fell so fucking hard for her. But.. I guess she didn't care about me as much as she pretended to. Sure, you can call me when your dream of being a cop gets fucked up by some horrid event. You can complain to me about how shitty your life is. You can tug my heart around every which way. But the thing that bothers me the most is that you lied. You told me I was the only one you were seeing, and that I was the only one you wanted to see. Little did you know I found out that ever since we started talking back in May, you were seeing someone else. And I should've realized it, too. She called you and texted you every single fucking time we were together. And you'd answer her every single time. You'd come to my place after just being with her at her place. And I didn't wanna believe you were lying to me. But you were. And what's more, I have no doubt that you lied to her and broke her heart, too.

I feel very sorry for you. However, I do wish you all the best in life. And I hope you find someone that makes you happy.

Write 30 interesting facts about yourself.

This seems like a self-involved question, but here it goes.

1. I was born in California.
2. I'm adopted.
3. I met my birthmother my freshman year of college.
4. My brother is also adopted.
5. I have a birthmark in one of my eyes that has a sort of leopard pattern.
6. I've been to England and France, and my favorite place on earth is Nice, France.
7. I have no artistic abilities whatsoever, but I have a pretty good singing voice.
8. I used to be a tomboy.
9. I have a slight obsession with reading.
10. I really enjoy doing volunteer work.
11. I used to collect dreamcatchers.
12. Anything neon-colored makes me super happy.
13. I always use coloring books every time finals week rolls around to relax.
14. I still jump in mud puddles and twirl/dance in the pouring rain.
15. I have an obnoxiously large collection of pictures of memories with my friends decorating the walls of my bedroom in my apartment.
16. I rarely wear makeup, and when I do it's usually just eyeliner and chapstick.
17. I like making collages.
18. I have the oddest collection of earrings you'll ever see.
19. My favorite thing to do during a thunderstorm is curl up on a comfy couch under a million blankets with a good book. If I had my choice, there'd be a fire burning in the fireplace too.
20. Swimming is the one and only thing that can make me 100% happy, when everything is going wrong, and it's like a goddamn apocalypse is happening, swimming makes everything completely better.
21. My three favorite flowers are lilies, cream-colored roses, and sunflowers. I've actually only had ONE person bring me an entire bouquet of all three of these flowers.
22. Picnics are fantastic, and my ideal for a date. At least when the weather is nice and warm. =)
23. Kisses on my forehead make my knees go weak.
24. I'm usually pretty kickass at twister. =P
25. I hate wearing dresses. I'm fine with wearing skirts when I have to, but I'm definitely a jeans and t-shirt kind of girl.
26. I walk around my house half naked most of the time.
27. I love baking desserts. (:
28. RFM will always own a special place in my heart. Love you guys. <3
29. During the summer, laying on the docks near the creek, bathing in the sun with my friends is one of my favorite pass-times.
30. At any point in my life, I'm torn between at least two things that are important to me.

A time you thought about ending your life.

I've never thought of ending my life. No matter how horrible my life has been, ending my life has never crossed my mind.

So.. I'm kinda pissed right now. My best friend was supposed to fly back to Boston from Illinois today. We were gonna spend all night snuggling and watching movies, and then possibly get tattoos tomorrow and dye her hair. She's such a fucking sweetheart. She wanted to pay for 2 tattoos for me, and get 2 herself, as my christmas present. Seriously, how nice is she? Her birthday was also 3 days ago, so we were just going to spend a lot of time having a blast and relaxing to celebrate.

Her flight was supposed to be at 11am today. Her flight got delayed, and finally canceled. So, she's sleeping in the airport tonight. =/ I really fucking miss her and I wish she was here. It's not fair. Every time we try to get together and hang out something gets in the way. I hope she takes monday off so we can spend more than a few hours together. I think we both really need each other right now.

Your views on religion.

My mom raised my brother and I as Catholics. I went through all the CCD classes and made my confirmation. Honestly, growing up that way, being forced to go to church every weekend and go to the classes, especially when it wasn't something I believed in, really really sucked. When I was about 12 I started researching other religions, trying to find something that agreed with me and just flowed with who I am as a person. Within that year, I found Wicca. And something just clicked and I was really happy with it. I started studying and practicing and meditating, and everything just felt so great.

Unfortunately, when it came time to go to my first year of college, I didn't have as much time for my religion. I know that sounds like an excuse, but it's the truth. I barely even had time to sleep, let alone do a circle a couple times a week. I want to start getting back into studying and practicing. I think that's going to be my New Year's resolution. I do, however, still meditate on an almost daily basis. It keeps me calm and relaxed, which is definitely something I need lately because of all the added stress in my life.

I think that everyone fits with a certain religion, or they just don't fit with any at all. And that's okay. Some people are drawn to some things and some people aren't. I just really don't like when people try to convert your to their religion. THAT IS NOT FUCKING OKAY.

Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Oh goodness haha. Umm I do have a history with both drugs and alcohol. I won't go into the details because that is honestly WAY too personal, even for a blog. And I'm not exactly ready to admit to EVERYONE in the world what I've been through.

However, just because I've had bad experiences with drugs and alcohol doesn't mean I'm completely against them. Obviously, drugs like cocaine and heroin are really harmful and I wouldn't wish that anyone would do those drugs. But stuff like weed is practically harmless (in my mind) so I don't think that's such a bad thing. Alcohol can be a good thing, just as long as it's in moderation (as my mom would say).

As long as you're not doing harm to yourself, I see no problem with it.

Do I do drugs? No chance in hell. Do I drink? Very rarely, usually for my close friends' birthdays or holidays.

But yeah, that's my view on things.

Where you'd like to be in 10 years. (Okay, so I'm 3 days behind so here's 3 posts in a row.)

Hmm.. I honestly dislike thinking that far into the future simply because I feel like it limits what I can do in my life. I feel like I'd be blinding myself to random amazing opportunities that could pop up.

But basically, in 10 years I want to be a domestic violence counselor, and I want to be happy. It's as simple as that. Anything else great that happens in my life will be considered a blessing.

Zombie Strippers

This movie is fucking retarded.. like.. okay, I understand the concept.. but this fucking strippers neck got ripped apart.. she becomes a zombie and all the guys think she's hotter that way. She takes a guy into the lapdance room and bites his dick off. The second stripper that becomes a zombie tears this guy's head open by his mouth and bites his tongue off.

Seriously.. who fucking thought of this wack ass movie?

Your current relationship. If single, discuss how single life is.

I'm currently single.. however, I'm in love with someone right now.. So I guess that means I'm not single in my heart. I miss her so much it hurts, with every breath I take. I wish it didn't hurt this much.

Challenge.

Motivation.

I have absolutely no motivation to do anything lately. I don't even know why.
I barely have any interest in school anymore. Skipping class, not doing homework, not studying.
Finals week is just.. blah. All I want to do is curl up in bed and sleep or read (for fun). Watching Buffy.
Yeah, I know. Kind of pathetic. But I honestly don't have the slightest bit of energy lately. Like, I can barely gather up enough energy to get out of bed, let alone to get my ass to finals.

I don't understand anything right now. But I wish it would all just stop, so I can move on with my life again.

Seriously? Like really? You're gonna go ahead and be like that and barely talk to me and ignore me? When I drove over 12 hours to go get you? It's not my fucking fault you weren't there, and it's also not my fault that your cell phone wasn't working right and you didn't know it. You could've taken a sick day from work to wait and see if I'd show up (which I PROMISED you I would and did). The fact that you didn't even tell your job you were leaving shows me a lot though, like you didn't even think from the beginning that I loved you enough to come get you.. STOP BREAKING MY HEART. And figure out a way to come home if you still wanna be with me. Because honestly, I'm so tired of being the one to have to fight to be with you. Why don't you try fighting for me for once?

Okay, so I left wednesday to go get my ex girlfriend. WHAT A FUCKING MESS. The drive was horrible, seriously took longer than 12 hours, it was freezing, and I had 2 anxiety attacks. The biggest problem was that my ex's phone wasn't working right. She kept texting me asking why I wasn't answering her texts or calls and then got angry. I HAD called her and texted her about 60 times.. apparently her cell couldn't receive any texts or calls for some stupid reason. But she didn't know this, so she got mad and told me she'd be at her house at 7:30am and to call or text if I wanted to.

Well, she wasn't there when we got there at 7:45am. I banged on the door for a good hour or so. We went to drive around town and look for her. I didn't know the name of the place where she worked, so I couldn't go there. We went back to check her house one more time, and then left. =( I cried for literally 4 hours straight. The tears just would not stop. Just as we were almost to the NY border, I go on aim to see her online. I flipped out on her asking her where the fuck she was.. turns out she went to work because she thought we weren't coming because I hadn't answered her. We had a very upsetting conversation.

I seriously cannot believe we drove right past where she works without knowing it. :(

I honestly feel like I've lost every emotion I have, other than this feeling of gut-wrenching sadness and loss. I have NEVER in my life cried this much. My heart physically hurt as we left Indiana, because I wanted to stay there all day for her to come home, but couldn't. I feel like I've lost a part of myself, that huge, special part of myself that keeps me constantly happy and going forward in life. I love this girl with all of my heart, and now have no way to see her (as I literally drained my bank account for this trip). There's a lot of other details to why this is so fucked up, but I don't believe she'd want anyone knowing them so I won't mention it.

All I'll say is that I miss her so terribly, incredibly much, and it feels like I can't breathe because she's not here. It was so hard to sleep in my bed last night.. knowing that she could've been there with me, all snuggled up and warm.. and that sense of loss is driving me to my fucking knees.

I hate this. I hate that she we couldn't find her. I hate that she's not here.

7 deadly sins challenge

I'm going to do this all at once, just because those one a day challenges annoy me and I never have the time to finish them. Besides, there's a freak rainstorm outside and the streets are flooded so I'm staying inside and have mucho time to waste.

Day 1 - Pride. Seven great things about yourself.
1. I'm honest. I cannot stand lies and liars.
2. I have a birthmark in one of my eyes, my boss at my old job referred to it as a leopard eye, because the dots on my eye form that kind of pattern.
3. I volunteer as much as its physically possible for me to. I actually quit my job this semester so I could focus more on school and volunteering.
4. I'm adopted. I have a bit of a valley girl accent, even though I'm not from near the valley. People make fun of it, but I like my accent.
5. I love my body. I'm finally at that point in my life where I'm completely comfortable with how I look, and no one will make me think different.
6. I love with all that I am.
7. I do a lot of work with my college's sexuality group. We put together over 100 programs a year. =)

Day 2 - Envy. Seven things you lack and covet.
1. Right now I lack the person I love, she's in a different state. But I'll be going to get her next week so this one sort of doesn't count lol.
2. I lack the money to take my winter course, as well as pay all of my bills, etc.
3. I covet those who grew up with both parents, because I unfortunately had to grow up without having a father around.
That's honestly all I lack or covet. I don't really want or need anything else.

Day 3 - Wrath. Seven things that piss you off.
1. liars
2. abusers
3. cheaters
4. cockiness
5. when people are horrible or mean to someone, especially when they don't have a cause.
6. when people spread rumors.
7. when people talk down to me.

Day 4 - Sloth. Seven things you neglect to do.
1. the dishes
2. clean (I do clean, but I always forget or don't have time so its usually only once a week)
3. to go to some of my classes
4. sometimes I neglect to think before I speak
5. I usually wait until my laundry has piled up to an insane amount before I actually do it.
6. I unfortunately go into this little bubble when I fall for someone, and sometimes neglect family and friends in order to spend as much time with that person as possible. I'm working on it though.
7. Myself. I neglect my own feelings and things I need to get done in order to make the people around me happy. This needs to stop. I am not an emotional punching bag.

Day 5 - Greed. Seven worldly material desires.
1. Money, obviously, so I can pay all my bills and not have to worry.
2. Cell phone.
3. Computer.
4. More food than I can afford.
5.
6.
7.

Day 6 - Gluttony. Seven guilty pleasures.
1. Sex.
2. Ice cream, with whipped cream.. or whipped cream all on its own. ;)
3. Candy/chocolate.
4. Sexual movies or novels.
5. Alcohol; preferably rum or tequila.
6. Really long baths with fragrance mixed into the water, maybe some candles.
7. This isn't a guilty pleasure.. just a pleasure: spending time with a certain someone. <3

Day 7 - Lust. Seven love secrets
1. I'm still in love with one of my exgfs, as you can see from the previous post.
2. I will always wonder what could have been with that girl I was sort of seeing this past summer.
3. Being in love scares the shit out of me.
4. Sometimes I think I'm incapable of being loved..
5. I wonder if I'm inadequate, frequently..
6. There was another girl from this past summer.. I wonder sometimes what would have happened between us if I had hung out with her instead of getting completely absorbed in the girl from #2.
7. I'm just waiting for someone to find me and say they love me, and then show me that they honestly and truly do.