Confession: I like a girl that knows what she wants and goes for it. ;)
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Biblical Interpretations.. enough said. I have the worst migraine ever this morning.
Could be from the rattling heater. Could be from the really loud fucking noises all night that sounded like something was repeatedly exploding outside for like 4 hours straight. Could be from someone's boyfriend's snoringgg haha. Just kidding about that last one.
I don't know why we were all so hyper last night. J, D, and I ended up watching Dollhouse until 2am. Eliza Dushku = UNF.
Also, my lungs are on fire. I think I need to be less drunk when I go out downtown so I'm quicker to realize the stupid shit that's going on.
Two highlights to this week. I get to see I, E, P, and possibly some others thursday night, then pass out at I's for the night since J is having two friends coming to stay with her for St Pattys Day, and her boyfriend will obviously be staying over as well.
Saturday is Relay for Life with my fraternity, followed by rushing to E's to grab her, A, and P to race downtown in time for the bout. Then out for E's birthday. No idea where yet, but as the last time resulted in semi-drunken hilarity, I'm fairly excited to see everyone lol.
I really need a nap.
I better see JT today or I will yell at her because she's been so MIA in my life this semester.
K, time to finish paying attention to this class.
[Wonder what he thinks when he sees my pentacle necklace every class -> my professor is a priest or something on the side]
Cannot wait to go back to J's and pass the hell out.
=)
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Edit: Ugh. Just when I stop thinking about C, she fucking texts me saying she's in NY and she wants to see me. I ask her if she's going to explain why she's barely said three words to me the past two weeks, and she says okay nvm. Wtf? I have a right to be pissed at her. She doesn't even care enough to explain. Seriously, fuck you and fuck this shit.
Now I really can't wait for this weekend to start. I deserve so much better than this shit, and I deserve to be happy. And I'm sure as hell too good for you, sweetheart.
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Update: C texted me again. She said she needs to see me, and wants me to come visit her. She wouldn't explain why. So I called her. I haven't heard her voice in over a month. It was definitely hard to talk to her. She had to go but told me to call back. Her service fucking sucks. It kept not letting her call me or me call her, and it cut her off the one time she got through. The last text I got from her said, "I need you." That was over an hour and a half ago. Why does she have to make things so hard? She knows me too fucking well. She knows how far she can push me. I just wish she'd explain things so I could understand what the fuck was going on.
I'm not going to give in though. If she wants another chance, she's gonna have to work for it like everyone else [I'm single and I can do whatever the fuck I want, and I honestly don't care what anyone thinks about that anymore]. She's also going to have to start from the beginning again, because I'm not forgetting any of the shit that's happened in the past year.
Friends. That's what I'm offering. I don't have enough in me to offer her more right now. Besides, there's two other girls that I'm attracted to right now, and I'm not ruling either of them out.
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Edit: Ugh. Just when I stop thinking about C, she fucking texts me saying she's in NY and she wants to see me. I ask her if she's going to explain why she's barely said three words to me the past two weeks, and she says okay nvm. Wtf? I have a right to be pissed at her. She doesn't even care enough to explain. Seriously, fuck you and fuck this shit.
Now I really can't wait for this weekend to start. I deserve so much better than this shit, and I deserve to be happy. And I'm sure as hell too good for you, sweetheart.
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Update: C texted me again. She said she needs to see me, and wants me to come visit her. She wouldn't explain why. So I called her. I haven't heard her voice in over a month. It was definitely hard to talk to her. She had to go but told me to call back. Her service fucking sucks. It kept not letting her call me or me call her, and it cut her off the one time she got through. The last text I got from her said, "I need you." That was over an hour and a half ago. Why does she have to make things so hard? She knows me too fucking well. She knows how far she can push me. I just wish she'd explain things so I could understand what the fuck was going on.
I'm not going to give in though. If she wants another chance, she's gonna have to work for it like everyone else [I'm single and I can do whatever the fuck I want, and I honestly don't care what anyone thinks about that anymore]. She's also going to have to start from the beginning again, because I'm not forgetting any of the shit that's happened in the past year.
Friends. That's what I'm offering. I don't have enough in me to offer her more right now. Besides, there's two other girls that I'm attracted to right now, and I'm not ruling either of them out.
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