Confession #26

Confession: I think I finally started to move on a little bit last night.

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For the first time in a long time, I wasn't thinking about her, at all.

I wasn't sad, hoping she'd text me.
(In the words of DM, "I was just a crutch for your loneliness, your heart was never really there."
I'm not going to be her crutch. It hurts too much to give so much for someone that treats you like that.)
This makes me so unbelievably happy.

I think things will start getting a lot better soon.

L's birthday was AMAZING.

I haven't danced like I did last night in ages.

Normally I hold back a little. But holy fuck.

I went nuts haha.

All I heard all night was "Get itttt."

My friends are ridiculous.

S kept lifting L in the air to massive cheers.

AG came up from home with her fiance. My cousin came up from home as well.

We all haven't gone out together since Halloween.

But there were some serious creepers last night.

I think we spent more time cockblocking than anything.

I almost punched this guy who wouldn't stop harassing me. Like seriously, you're gonna yell at me for being gay, insult me, then try to kiss me several times? And then go after me again, then my friends?

I don't fucking think so. Some people are just disgusting.

The night got fucked up real quick after we decided to leave the club. We go outside to see 5 or so cops, this guy being tackled to the ground, him getting hit with a nightstick. We didn't even realize he'd been maced until we inhaled it. My throat hurts like a bitch still, and I sound like a frog. Fantastic.

The cab driver screwed us on the cab fair. I won't say what happened after we got out of the cab because it wasn't good.. I've NEVER seen my friends act like that.

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Something keeps nagging at me though. Instead of being annoyed that C wasn't texting me.. I was kind of hoping for this other girl to text me. Never saw that one coming. I was a little disappointed last night.