le sigh.

"I’ve heard it a million times. “You can do better. You deserve so much more.” In reality, you’re right. But sometimes when you love, you love the person for who they are despite what they’ve done wrong to you. That’s what love does to you. It’s not about who you deserve, it’s about who you want, who you need, and who you love."

I swear being apart from her is the second hardest thing I've had to deal with in the past year. Every day it gets harder.. even though I know that with every day, I'm closer to seeing her again. I miss the way her smile crooks to one side when she knows I'm being silly. I miss sitting in my room, the lights off, her laying on top of me with my fingers trailing down her back because I know it relaxes her, my other hand finding hers, fingers lacing together. I miss talking for hours while completely ignoring the movie that's playing. I miss looking into her pretty eyes and kissing her. I miss how I feel when I'm with her. I don't care about the past, don't care about how much pain she's put me through. I want her here. I want to be with her, to go on cute little dates, to spend time talking, laughing, and kissing, to eventually live together and just be happy. I know that there's so many obstacles in our way, life really is against us.. and the past will always try to hang on to us. But I refuse to not give this a try. It's going to be tough to start out, so much has been done. But I'm going to trust you, I'm going to believe that you want this as much as you say you do. And I'm going to believe that you've changed. I love her. Nothing will change that. And nothing has changed that since we first met. I can't wait to see her.

‎"There will come a time in your life when you become absolutely infatuated with a single soul. For this person, you’d do anything and not think twice about it, but when asked why, you have no answer. You’ll try your whole life to understand how a single person can affect you as much as they do, but you’ll never find out. And no matter how badly it hurts or how badly you hate it, you’ll love this person for the rest of your life without regret."