Sorry.

So, apparently I was the world's biggest jackass via texting last night.

To several people.

And for that, I apologize.

They shouldn't have had to deal with that.

And I should have left my phone at my apartment.

But.. I wouldn't have been able to get into her building if I hadn't had my phone on me.

And, as it usually happens,

I was missing someone, hadn't talked to her in like a week,

so I brought it.

But at least she forgives me for sounding like an idiot.

Although, I have some serious making up to do to two other people.

*le sigh*

I don't remember everything that was said,

but I definitely remember everything I did.

One bad action to a bunch of good (if we leave out the texting portion of the night).

I haven't been that drunk in a very long time..

probably not since Halloween.

That's obviously not an excuse for how I acted.

And again, I'm incredibly sorry to those who had to see that part of the night.

But, after the whole getting sick and feeling like shit,

I did end up feeling better.

So we all went out,

and had a really good time.

The walk over was hilarious.

And it felt so good to dance again.

Every time I go dancing, it's like coming home.

I just immediately stop worrying about any of the shit in my life,

and everything is good and happy and near-perfect.

Don't get me wrong, I missed her last night,

and I wanted her to be there so badly.

But I did have a good time with good people.

Despite the annoying amount of men grabbing my arms and hips to try and dance with me.

And when I say, "I'm not interested," "I don't want to dance with you," "Get your hands off me," or "No!" accompanied by me making a shooing motion with my hand or me physically shoving you away from me, that means get the fuck off me.

And don't come back two more times and try again.

Because then you're just asking to get smacked in the face.

Anyway.

I'm definitely feeling it today.

Although, no hangover.

So that's a good thing.

I'll be able to function at work.

And hopefully it's an easy night,

and we can all have a few laughs,

and I can be home by 11pm.

Because I'm physically and emotionally drained.

I've been running myself ragged the past 2 weeks.

I think I just need to stop and take a break.

BG's birthday is next Thursday, and I said I'd be there.

Although, I think I'm only going to be having one celebratory shot,

and then just go out sober.

She can have the rest of the liquor I left at her place.

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I've pretty much decided that I'm skipping roller derby on Saturday.

As much as I want to go,

I think that I need to go home for a few days.

There's been some stuff that's been bugging me lately,

and I need my friends' opinions on everything.

And honestly,

a bunch of Kaylee stuff was dredged up the other day,

and it has me pretty upset.

I really fucking miss her.

She'd know what to do about everything that's been going on with me the past few months.

So, I need to go home,

and have my mom hug me and talk to me about it.

I need to be at the creek, so I can think.

And I need to see my best friends.