I wish....

that for at least one day, I could have the ability to say all the right things.

Instead, everything just comes out stupid or wrong.

I thought going to Lennox with KE would help clear my head, but we didn't get to do all that much.

It was really pretty there, though.

I wish we could have spent more time exploring.

There was this gorgeous stone church with a really big archway and a shrine to Mary or one of the saints.

The park wasn't much of a park.

Although, we did get this really old chubby man with no shirt on to take our picture with this cannon that was on display lol. Talk about having the most awkward conversation ever.

We had ice cream, twice. My body is so going to hate me later.

I actually got to not think about anything for about an hour today.

I went to my frat's game night. We played Catch Phrase. I'd never played before, but it was seriously hilarious. Half of that shit was too crazy to describe, and it got too awkwardly sexual at one point and we lost that round due to fits of choked laughter by me and another girl.

I came home and KC was home, so I told her I needed to talk and crawled onto her bed and we had a long talk. Literally, it's been about an hour and a half conversation that went from really serious to laughter. I think I've just been too stressed for too long, and it's been building up because I haven't found a way to relieve it entirely. I need to find the time to go swimming, even if I have to skip something important. I need to take a few hours and swim until my muscles are too exhausted to carry me forward.

I need that peace, that serenity.

Everyone keeps pressuring me to choose my future.

But everything depends on something else.

You can't have one thing without five other things first.

I choose my future. No one else.

Anyway, KC and I are munching on cereal and watching The League.

She's going to bed soon, though.

Who's going to stay up to watch a funny movie? This girl.