I didn't sleep well, at all.

You know when you have those fitful dreams, where you thrash around in your sleep?

Yeah, that was my night.

I ended up smacking my head into the wall.

Nice way to wake up, right?

My head has been pounding with a headache all morning.

Fucking a.

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I felt horrible last night. She was so stressed out and I couldn't be there to help. I didn't know what to say that would make her feel better, so I just sat there in silence, willing every ounce of calm I had to just make its way to her. That was a fail. =/ I wish I had a way to stop all the crappy stuff in her life from wearing her down. I wish I could kidnap her and we could go somewhere for a day or two. If it were warm, I'd take her to my hometown, to my favorite spot, the creek. It's hard for anyone to be stressed at that place. I wonder if my uncle put the dock out yet.. I'll have to ask my mom. It's something to think about. There's honestly not much else to do in my hometown until HITS opens (the horse show thing that comes to our town every summer), or until Stella's opens for the season. Well, there's two other towns to go to, but they're small and either hickish or hippieish.

Hmm.. I think some scheming is in order.

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Sitting in the library between classes, and for once, I have nothing to do. All my papers are finished. I have nothing do until after Spring Break. Break should be interesting. I'm trying to decide if and when I should go home to see my family for a few days. Don't really want to, but I'll probably have to. Mom's already asked if I'm coming home at all. *sigh* Maybe I'll make my RFM buddies come over if I do end up having to go home. We could have another cookie making adventure or go for a very long walk and just talk. So much has been going on lately, I miss not having them be able to come over or to go to AH's house (aka, the designated RFM Reunion house) to talk to and help me sort things out. I wrote them all a letter with a basic overview of my life right now, and I can just picture AH beaming as she's reading it and telling me that she's happy that things are getting better and that she's glad I'm happy. I can't believe her and her boyfriend have been together for over 4 years now. Where did the time go? They're going to end up getting married, I'm surprised they haven't already. And I can picture LH shaking her head at me and laughing at my silliness. I can also picture the massive hug I'm going to get when I see her, as I told her about a lot of the bad things that've happened. IC, goddess only knows what she'll say. She's the farthest away, and it makes the rest of us miss her even more.

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Some random things that made me smile today:

He's so adorableeee haha.

And he crows, too. =P

That awkward moment when you lock eyes with a cute girl and you feel like doing this:

But then you end up doing something like this:

But then she's still into it so you're all like: